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I've been away from dA for some time cause I see no point in this system, last picture I uploaded Heaven and hell II was a test that confirmed what I've been thinking for a while, too many FAV's (pointless) and so little comments about the picture, good or bad.. I don't really care but I wanted some feedback and I got close to none.

I might start uploading again because I have no other free host to put my pictures in.

I'm fine, I'm alive, I'm good, I started to shoot lot of portraits, and I'm embarking on July 3rd for 5 months on a Cruise Ship as Photographer.
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Since I wrote anything here or uploaded pictures... I don't know why I'm so moodless, I don't feel like doing anything.. except watching the time pass by me... like a... homeless guy in a metro station... just eating.. drinking... sleeping.. and.. hoping that one day I'll find a better reason to live.



Anyway today I found a new Sage Francis song called The Best of Times, it's the second single from his new album Li(f)e that is coming out on May 11

Well I can say that is the kind of song that I can relate to..

Here is the YouTube Link of the song


And here are the lyrics


It's been a long and lonely trip but I'm glad that I took it because it was well worth it.
I got to read a couple books and do some research before I reached my verdict.
Never thought that I was perfect. Always thought that I had a purpose.
Used to wonder if I'd live to see my first kiss.

The most difficult thing I ever did was recite my own words at a service
realizing the person I was addressing probably wasn't looking down from heaven.
Or cooking up something in hell's kitchen, trying to listen in or eaves drop from some another dimension.
It was self serving just like this is.

Conveniently religious on Easter Sunday and on Christmas.
The television went from being a babysitter to a mistress.
Technology made it easy for us to stay in touch while keeping a distance,
'til we just stayed distant and never touched. Now all we do is text too much.

I don't remember much from my youth. Maybe my memory is repressed.
Or I just spent too much time wondering if I'd live to have sex.
Fell in love for the first time in 4th grade but I didn't have the courage to talk to her.
In 8th grade I wrote her the note but I slipped it in someone else's locker.

Considered killing myself 'cause of that.
It was a big deal. It was a blown cover.
It was over for me. My goose was cooked.
Stick a fork it me. The jig is up.
I blew my chances, the rest is history, our future was torn asunder.
It became abundantly clear that I was only brought here to suffer.

At least I didn't include my name.
Thankfully I wrote the whole note in code
and it had 10 layers of scotch tape safety seal making it impossible to open.
Plus, it was set to self destruct.
Whoever read it probably died…laughing.
I wonder if they lived long enough to realize what happened.

A year later, I came to understand that wasn't love that I was feeling for her.
I had someone else to obsess over.
I was older. I was very mature.
I forged my time signature while practicing my parents autograph 'cause I was failing math.
Disconnected the phone when I thought the teacher would call my home.

I checked the mailbox twice a day at the end of a long dirt road.
Steamed open a couple envelopes like I was in private detective mode.
If you snoop around long enough for something in particular you're guaranteed to find it.
For better or worse that's how I learned that it's best to just keep some things private.

It was the best of times. It was the end of times.

It was the best of times. It was the end of times.
I was always on deck, I was next in line.
An only child with a pen and pad writing a list of things that I could never have.
The walls in my house were paper thin.
Every squabble seemed to get deafening.
If my memory serves me correctly I made it a point to void and forget some things.
Probably to keep from being embarrassed.
Never meant to upset or give grief to my parents.
Kept my secrets…hid my talents…
in my head, never under the mattress.

Therapy couldn't break me.
Never learned a word that would insure safety.
So I spoke softly and I tip toed often.
The door to my room was like a big old coffin.
The way that it creeked when I closed it shut.
Anxieties peaked when it opened up.
As if everything that I was thinking would be exposed.
I still sleep fully clothed.

It was the best of times. It was the end of times.

It was beautiful.
It was brutal.
It was cruel.
It was business as usual.

Heaven. It was hell.
Used to wonder if I'd live to see 12.

When I did I figured that I was immortal.
Loved to dance but couldn't make it to the formal.
Couldn't bear watching my imaginary girlfriend
bust a move with any other dudes.

Tone Loc was talking bout a "Wild Thang"
but I was still caught up in some child thangs.
Scared of a God who couldn't spare the rod.
It was clearly a brimstone and fire thang.

Pyromaniac. Kleptomaniac.
Couldn't explain my desire to steal that fire.
Now I add it to my rider.
Like "Please oh please don't throw me in that patch of brier!"

It was the best of times. It was the end of times.

The school counselor was clueless 'cause I never skipped classes.
Perfect attendance. Imperfect accent.
Speech impediment they could never really fix
and I faked bad eyesight so I could wear glasses.

Considered doing something that would cripple me.
I wanted a wheelchair. I wanted the sympathy.
I wanted straight teeth so then came braces.
4 years of head gear helped me change faces.

It was the best of times. It was the end of times.

Now I wonder if I'll live to see marriage.
Wonder if I'll live long enough to have kids.
Wonder if I'll live to see my kids have kids.
If I do I'm gonna tell 'em how it is.

"Don't listen when they tell you that these are your best years.
Don't let anybody protect your ears.
It's best that you hear what they don't want you to hear.
It's better to have pressure from peers than not have peers.
Beer won't give you chest hair. Spicy food won't make it curl.
When you think you've got it all figured out and then your universe collapses…
trust me, kid…it's not the end of the world."
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End of 2009

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The end is near.. of course the end of 2009

I wish you all a happy new year and hope you can accomplish more goals in the next year.


p.s. For my Romanian friends, listen to this song Zeppelin feat Praetor - Dupa ce ei mor
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Help Portrait

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I just found this on Chase Jarvis Blog - blog.chasejarvis.com/blog/2009… and I felt like I should share it.

What's this about? I'm gonna quote the Help Portrait website and then you should go take a look over there if you're interested.

"Help Portrait is a movement of photographers who are using their time, equipment and expertise to give back to those who are less fortunate this holiday season."

If you want to find more about it go to www.help-portrait.com


~ Clubs ~

:iconrowatch: :iconbucuresticlub: :iconromanianphotographer: :iconromanianartistss: :iconskyandnatureclub: :iconunderratedwatch: :iconblack-sea-club:

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Planuri noi

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Azi am decis sa pun capat vietii blogului meu (2ndface.ro) si sa construiesc un website cu fotografiile mele personale, un fel de portofoliu as putea spune.

Legat de fotografie am sa incerc sa uplodez mai multe poze de acum incolo si sper ca voi reusi pana la sfarsitul lunii sa uplodez cam tot ce e bun din Ianuarie pana acum.



Am sa fac un feature mic cu ultimile favuri in scop de promovare caritabila, sper sa va placa si voua.

Andrei.


Campulung 2 by stoicavictormarius In your eyes I see a new day by a3t3rnum Prayer by dianar87 Bonifacio City by ghito Countryside by DianaCretu Peek-a-boooo by DianaCretu Don't by GabXcorePhotography


9829 by The-Definition Mountain scape Cheia 26Jul2008 by John77 Up in the clouds.. by Anna88 The soul reader by DianaCretu Have a seat by ulivonboedefeld Through the Mist by jg244 :thumb137725479: psychedelic mood by hybrid4u Top of the world by dilemmaqueen oooooo updated by AncaCernoschi Lovable by colorful-child :thumb132901941:


Shadows by sadik18 :thumb105856901: old guy by rami777 funny guy by Sesjusz Portrait of sad eyes by MarinStefan


~ Clubs ~

:iconrowatch: :iconbucuresticlub: :iconromanianphotographer: :iconromanianartistss: :iconro-nature: :iconunderratedwatch: :iconblack-sea-club:

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